Well, this is the first time I have logged on here in months. Clearly, a “blogger” I am not. Although I haven’t written anything in months, I don’t want to give up this space just yet. I created this in the first place to document what I wanted and to remember my life. Danny and I do not take enough pictures, and seriously I have taken almost none in the last few months, but remembering this little space exists every once in awhile is a good push to do so.
I feel like life for me has changed A LOT in the last couple months. I have never felt this way before. I can’t say I have never experienced this much change before because that is completely untrue, but I think I have never felt so content, happy, and fortunate in my life as I am right now and as I have been for the past few months.
My job is definitely not over demanding. I get to leave at 5pm most days, but at the same time when I get home I want “me” time or “us” time and this is the absolute last thing I think about. But on the days I have my longer drives to our further campus I take back roads for 33 miles each way and I love that drive. I have always said commuting is not in my blood, but something about this particular stretch of road just really makes me think and reminisce about life every time I drive it. Today I decided to get home and write.
Oddly I have also barely read blogs in the past few months. This is something I have never done so rarely since I started reading. I still always read certain bloggers no matter what, but even some of my favorites I have skipped posts because I knew I just wasn’t that interested to read about what they were going to talk about.
I have also realized I am long winded about things I really feel confident in and things I really know something about. Try to get me to send a short email at work! But talking about myself? Not so much. I feel like I lead an average life and I do the same things everyone else does. Of course I joke all the time I am the most boring person alive, but I just say that out loud to people because, truly, I love my life and I am exactly where I always wanted to be.
I guess this is also stemming from how content and truly absolutely fortunate I have felt lately. I feel like blessed is the best word here, but only because I am a southern girl. Am I religious? No. Have I ever said blessed before regarding how I feel? Absolutely not that is weird, but if someone else where to describe how I feel right now…that is the word they would use.
In a short period of time I found out some great news in two aspects: personally and professionally. Professionally, I received a big promotion. The opportunities I have been granted at my community college have been absolutely wonderful. The confidence in my abilities my peers and superiors have in me makes me feel confident and like I really am good at something! This is an exciting, wonderful, amazing opportunity professionally.
Personally, I have even bigger news!! I know no one but a very, very small handful of people read this that do not know me, but for those of you on the internet that only know me on the internet…I am pregnant and expecting a baby July 30th! This is the most wonderful news I have to share with everyone around me. This is something I have always said if I blogged THIS is something I would want to blog about. I know me and I know I would never write in a journal to remember these moments, and heck most likely not a baby book either because I am lazy like that, but I would like to at least try to do it here!
Part of why I have not put anything together about being pregnant on here is not because I did want to share the news, and honestly, this is just for me because I don’t do a very good job of reaching out to other people on blogs for them to read my page, but because I have felt totally normal! I have nothing to share and it is the craziest thing ever!
I never expected to feel this way being pregnant. I guess I watch too much TV? I have had no morning sickness or nausea. I have just started to show in the last week and a half and I really haven’t changed anything! Of course, I am so tired and I am getting acne I have never experienced before, but really I don’t even think about these things because I feel fine otherwise. I feel fortunate that this is the case. It has been odd though because other than feeling tired it has been hard to make this seem real! I didn’t tell anyone at work until 13 weeks and most people at 14 weeks and now ending week 15 everyone still doesn’t know! My family all knows, but it took me a long time to tell anyone at work. My stomach is starting to poke out and by boobs are growing a little bit. We find out the gender in another month. After telling people at work, the people I see everyday, and actually buying a few things now it is really starting to sink in.
I haven’t felt movement yet. I am excited because I know it will be soon. I think then I will feel more of a connection, but for now I still feel like myself otherwise!! It is so hard to explain. We definitely planned this little nugget and seeing Danny being excited and talk about baby things has been the best part of the whole experience so far. Watching him and hearing about how he feels and his dreams for this baby (and really the toys) are what make this the best thing ever. I know as the baby continues to grow, we prepare its room, I feel it move, and we start to make arraignments it will feel real and I am so very excited to see our lives 6 months from now. Time has seriously flown since we found out which I never expected it would. All of these things I listed will be here before I can blink.
For now this is all I have to share. I have tried very hard to remember to start taking weekly pictures and I kind of am doing okay with remembering so here are some shots so far. It will be so fun if I stick with it to see the entire progression as I find it so neat and interesting to view this same thing from other people!